(14f) I have such high expectations for myself and I feel like if I don’t meet them I might as well just give up on living all together. lol. They’re actually stupidly high for someone so average like myself. I just cant accept a life I don’t want. I cant accept average. I cant settle. When I think about giving up on my dream career/future it feels like i’m suffocating. All my life I’ve been told to just give up. It seems like everyone around me has. Nobody has ever believed in me. I’ve also never been given the opportunity to prove myself. I feel so stupid putting faith into it, like i’m gullible and immature, but I just have so much to give that I don’t know where to put. Maybe i’m too young and too oblivious of the real world to be worrying so much about it, but every time i get asked what I wanna do when i get older, my heart just sinks lol
