I’ll just get right into it. I would say I’m a pretty sane person, but recently whenever my mom yells at me I start crying really easily and I have a habit of telling myself I want to die. I have had thoughts of committing before but I just feel so ungrateful. I’m not poor. I live in a decently sized apartment and I have lots of family that care about me. The only reason I haven’t hurt myself is because I hate being in pain and I know if I did anything to myself it would hurt other people more. My mom doesn’t physically abuse me (not anymore at least) and she does care about me. Just sometimes she makes me feel really bad about myself. To be honest, I hate myself. I try to stay happy for everyone else but I don’t think I can keep it up anymore. The only thing I’m looking forward to is a puppy I’m getting. But the thing is, is that my mom keeps holding that against me as well. Whenever I do something wrong she threatens to just give up the dog which makes me feel even worse. I just need advice.
