For the last 3 years I’ve felt as though some how the location of my consciousness has changed from being just in my eyes and observing and feeling the world on my skin and feeling real to constantly just being stuck in my head. I use to feel different when it was night and day now it just seems to feels as tho the days blur. My eyes never really seem to focus. I feel like I can never remember what I look like. I feel detached from my body. This has been going on for 3 years now and I don’t know what normal feels like anymore. Or if I ever will I can’t enjoy anything anymore I’ve been to so many doctors, and psychiatrists is just way to expensive. I don’t even bother to pursue relationship, and I struggle to maintain the relationship I have the Brain fog is strong and my memory is weak. My neck constantly feels stiff. I want to feel normal again so bad I miss life so much and feeling real. I also have become I extreme religious in hope of divine help from Jesus to the point I pray randomly even if I’m scrolling on my phone I will pray every two minutes otherwise I feel guilty. My self conscious has tumbled I can’t even look people in the eyes when speaking otherwise I feel they will be able to see that I look crazy and feel uncomfortable.
