I can’t find sh//t on Google to answer what is wrong with me. Whenever I have nightmares that revolve around past s//xual trauma, i wake up in a shaking crying screaming rage that lasts maybe 5 minutes. I can’t control myself. Less than 20 minutes ago I had a horrible nightmare about an abusive ex reliving what he did to me. I always wake up shaking, chest feels like it’s going to cave in, heart going million mph, I scream, cry, break things, can’t talk, scream at any living thing near me to get away including my dogs which after I calm down I always feel so guilty but in the moment of aggression I need them to get the f//ck away from me I don’t even know why. This happens maybe once every few weeks. Ruins my day. What the f//ck is wrong with me?
