27 y.o. male born in an arabian country, now lives in Germany and studies a master’s degree. Although everything is going fine since the last 9 years, specifically having no bad habits like smoking, drinking or gambling and working during college to make a living, yet every now and then a short depression episode shows up and stays for couple of days up to couple of weeks. This happened so many times over the past years, that I stopped bothering friends, family about it or sought medical help. I just keep it to myself until I self-heal.
The thing is, since two months I started hitting the gym and maintaining a healthy and sugar free diet, I even started seeing positive results on my weight, yet when the episode happens again, you set yourself on auto-pilot mode and isolate yourself from the world.
Deep down in my mind I feel like I know the core of the problem: “loneliness”. Over the course of 8 years there were many attempts to find a partner, but due to few to almost no experience in this field they all have failed. At this point self just gives up and convinces itself to work on it’s own and to focus on goals, which is the result of the process of self-healing.
The question is, how does someone get out of this loop?