my mental health is declining really bad, I do not show it but I am breaking down so fast at night I am lost. I lost my fiance, we were together for 2 years and engaged for 5 months, she was my high school sweetheart. I did everything I could do for her, i tried my best and my best wasn’t enough. I know I had my issues. I didnt let her hang with certain people because of what happened to her and what happened to me in previous relationships. I always blew up her phone when I shouldnt have. I trusted her but I didnt trust the people she was with. I know I was in the wrong for that. But I tried everything to keep us together I really tried my best. I just wish I can go back in time and fix everything. I just wanna disappear forever and not come back. I just wish I could have her right in front of me and so I can say I am sorry, I would die so fast for her. I would take a bullet for her. I would do anything for her. Why was I the bad guy? How did I fail her? Am I really that bad? I tried my best my hardest I have ever tried in my life for her. but in the end I was the one who go kicked to the dust. what should I do. everything I do, reminds me of her. Just someone help me understand that it isnt my fault. She had her flaws too but I was too much in love with her I just didnt want to believe them. Just someone talk to me about what I can do to fix myself and move ob. Fix my mental health
