I wish I can crush my head in and get memory loss or just let me die because I want these thoughts to go away I’m doing better but it’s so hard I have been thought this 5 times and everytime it gets longer it’s been almost 2 years while I’m improving pretty well I’m scared! Also I think my extra anxiety meds wear of at 5 pm and I don’t want to take extra because I when though with draw once when I and had a panic attack and thought if I went to sleep I would suffocate!
