i just dont get it anymore ive never really had many friends but i was ok with it i mean i was a bit sad thinking about all the things ive never experienced i never really had a friend group to go outside with and just do stuff with and now im 18 and i feel like thats over and even worse over the past 4 months ive lost a friend because i liked her and she didnt like me the same way and now i think ive lost my best friend he hasnt responded to my messages in nearly 2 weeks even tho hes online all day playing games and talking to his friends in a vc and i just dont get why this is happening to me i know im not the best friend but ive talked to him months ago saying that im sorry if i ever hurt him and that ill always be there for him and now he just ghosts me i never spammed him or annoyed him with my feelings i just dont get it it happenned so suddenly and seemingly without reason and now i just dont know what to do i have no hobbys or anything where i could find some friends i just feel like shit i just dont see any future now anymore all the hope i still had is just gone
