I’m the victim of a narcissistic mother. I’ve learned a lot of her awful behaviors. I’ve been acting on a lot of those bad behaviors in my relationship for the past three years. I don’t want to be like that. I don’t want to hurt people. I keep making him feel unheard and less than. I yell a lot and react at him. I keep putting feelings on him that aren’t for him to take. I don’t think I have NPD. I don’t view myself better than others, I dont lack empathy, I do need admiration but only if I think I’ve done somthing worthy of it. But I still do some narcissistic things. I feel immense shame and guilt about it. I just want to be better.
