I just need to vent. I’ve been using pretty much daily for 5 months straight. I love the numbing affects of cocaine because it distracts me from my depression and anxiety. But I’m tired of being a prisoner to this drug. I bought a gram yesterday and I was high sitting in my room alone like a loser and I told myself this can’t be it for me. I threw basically the gram away (of course I saved a bit and used that the rest of the day) and told myself this is it. Today is my first day without it in a while. I went out of town a week ago and I didn’t have any for a week and I should have kept it that way. I need to face my depression and anxiety and not mask it with drugs. I’m done.
