Hello I am a 20 yr old writing this post cause I have had a pretty long night, I would have made fun of my future self for even attempting to write a post like this. Anyways I just feel so lonely and sad all the time, I don’t have any friends to talk to and I never share my feelings with my family like ever, I’m not even kidding last time I cried in front of family or anyone for that matter was when I was in 8th grade when I was like 13 or 14. And it’s not like I don’t want to but I just don’t know how to communicate properly to the point where I even avoid people talking to them and people at my work. I would absolutely love it if someone from work asked me to hangout or just even asked how I was. Even the person I consider my closest friend me and him never talk outside of work. I just wish someone would please talk to me, I have so much bottled up emotions and I just feel like one day I’m gonna do something to myself. And it does not help the fact that I have high functioning Austim. This eats at me everyday, especially after I’ve just had an awkward interaction with one of my co workers. I wish my parents never got me tested because I feel like it only exaggerated the symptoms because I overthink everything, i often say to myself “would an autistic person do that”. Sorry this post is so disorganized, I just have so much on my mind and I don’t properly know how to express my feelings.
