I want to bring up stuff with this therapist I have rn but I can’t stop thinking that when I say them out loud I’m exaggerating everything, I have so many things I don’t even know where to start but a part of me believes it’s too many things and I’m making shit up (or, again, exaggerating the number of things in my head). Also, this is a temporary therapist, I only have another couple of appointments left with her (it’s a free program thing idk university blah blah). Sorry, I’m not sure what I’m trying to say anyway, but yeah, is it even worth it saying everything? Also, I am convinced every time I talk about a problem to someone it goes away, and when I talk about something good it goes poorly. I’m kinda scared if I tell her what I want to tell her everything will go away and I would be lying to her at that point, it happened already and I felt awful (I mean, the stuff never really went away, but it did go away). You know what I mean? It’s happening already, last time I saw her I told her I was sure I was about to enter a low (I’ve been experiencing very bad lows and highs for years, I think? I’m not even sure anymore) and I haven’t yet and this is kinda stressing me out because it means I lied to her.
