i dont entirely know a lot about mental health aside from other posts and a basic interest i had but i have a few symptoms i can list
-firstly i show some levels of social anxiety it isn’t something that freezes me on the spot but in public i often struggle to keep my calm when i overhear conversations even if i dont mean to, it also has led to a form of awkwardness trying to move around others in crowds, plus i’m also pretty irritated when someone moves pretty slowly causing me to get kind of jittery.
-next is something i had for a long while, that is my not having much self confidence. i know this one is pretty common but it’s something sort of ingrained into me and causes me a lot of issues. like not really understanding when or not i should try and defend myself or whether or not i should retort. this also leads to another issue my absolute confusion on basic things.
-im confused about my own damn emotions and connections. honestly i think i’m pretty fucking confused about my connections whether that be between my family or my friends. with my family i know i love my family but i struggle communicating with them, sometimes when my father enters the room i just leave, other times i struggle to have any form of conversation with him. with my mother i am a bit more comfortable but i struggle to speak about anything actually serious. acting in a more carefree or light topic. with my friends its like i’m two people, around my closest friends i’m loud, obnoxious (to a point) and pretty extroverted. however when around my regular friend group or even just people i’m on speaking terms to i am quiet, i’m pretty dismissive and dont like to communicate.
-whatever i’m feeling is really annoying me, whenever i think deeply about something or end up thinking about difficult topics regarding my lack of self worth. i feel a wave of cold not like chills from a cold more potent. they normally last up to a minute but sometimes i have the cold feeling back to back. its really annoying and sometimes it makes me uncomfortable sitting down trying to ignore it in class.
overall i’m looking for some advice on these factors i doubt they are really that bad, but i want to get to be at least slightly normal.