I see a lot of pov saying "when you start wondering what you've done to deserve it" but the thing that confuse me is that I've never felt that, When I try to complain while crying in bed about my traumas or just the bad things that happen from time to time (basic human stuff) there's this voice in my head telling me that I deserve to suffer because I'm a horrible person and so it's like my stupid "sadness" suddenly turns into some kind of ball of hate and so I end up hurting myself in many ways instead and then I'm always like "girl wtf you're so weird stop this acting, just go study lmao"
I just want to know if there’s people here who are the same or if I’m just a weirdo who need to be send in jail