For context sorry for venting out like this but i had one of the worst year in my life .
Im planning to take my own life
Got diagnosed with cancer , now im finally in remission after some grueling chemotherapy , but it was a terrible period .
I had to sell alot of things , had to borrow and get in over my head with the banks , but i managed to oull through somehow .
I ve was alone through all this , i still am, both my parents died some years ago,no other close fsmily or friends .
But now i am at my wits end , i dont know what to do .
I have the equivalent of 0,35 cents left , and im supposed to survive on it for the next 3 weeks until i get paid . I am out of food co.pletely at the moment and i go to sleep hungry every night but now its absolutelly terrible .
I cant get a cash advance at work, im behind on bills, i dont have anyone from whom i can borrow, no food pantries or charities in my city ( im not from the usa ), and i asked for help from my priest but he called me wicked and greedy for asking for food/financial aid and that i need to pray to repent .
I feel like crying so much,i go to sleep every night with the most anxiety i ve ever had, thinking if the cancer will come back anytime soon from all this stress. I keep on going hungry, with anxiety and through problems . I ve prayed alot for a miracle and im still praying but i feel very lost and dont even have energy to go on anymore . Please pray for me .
