Hi,
Im taking clomipramine 50mg which is low dose and it has helped for anxiety but i have started to realize clomipramine or any other med cant fix one issue which is almost biggest issue. That is loss of identity/identity crisis. I seriously dont know what to do in my life because i have no idea who i was last year summer or who i am now. I dont know can i get relief of this ever.
So last year summer i started brintellix and i used it two days then stopped for 6 days and then returned to brintellix. Within same first month i missed 2-3 doses two times but i am not worried about those. I am mostly worried about that missed 6 days only after two day use and temporary emotional bluntness which started about two weeks later i returned to brintellix after 6 days. That emotional bluntness lasted few weeks but it went away. So those two things has caused severe worries and fears about that my personality changed permanently because of missing doses and because of temporary emotional bluntness.
Which is severe thing is that time has passed from last year summer and i dont remember mental presice myself from last year summer before brintellix and now i dont know what to do because meds dont help for that😞 My life has been based on the fact that I feel myself but now I have no idea if I am the same person as before I started brintellix last summer and who I am at the moment. This idenitity crisis has literally ruined and maked my life pointless. So has anybody experienced something like this? Are there options left? I regret how stupid i was because without missing doses i would not maybe be in this situation where i am now. I remember one patient story from one website which was topiced as SSRI’s and loss of identity and i can relate to that😕 I dont know what to do because clomipramine or any meds dont help shit for knowing myself who i am. I feel i cant rebuild myself from schratch