like the SMALLEST things make me spiral over the course of a few hours. i convinced myself that nobody actually cared abt me, got into that “fuck everything” mindset, and eventually was pacing back and forth in my room with an adrenaline buzz bc i decided the only thing i wanted to do was sh.
thankfully i’m feeling okay again. i was able to talk to a friend abt it and im thinking rationally again, but that doesn’t undo the fact that i literally just relapsed… over nothing??
whyyyyyy do i do this to myself bro