After a significantly traumatic life event, I've started to question if what I do every day is actually what I do, or because of my fear of what will happen if I don't do something in a specific way, so if I don't recall specifically in great detail every single action I took during the day then I start doubting if I successfully made it through the day without doing or exposing myself to the thing I fear the most.
Has anyone had any experience in dealing with such events? It is very traumatic and is spiking my anxiety daily and is starting to make me feel like I'm going crazy and is making me depressed as a result.