Hi guys, I'd like to share some insights, and hopefully start a positive discussion with anyone that might feel the same, just so we may know that we are not alone in this.
So, I'm in my early 20s and lately I've really been hit by some bitter emotions regarding my life experience and where I'm currently at. Actually I would be classified as an "on time" or "regular" young adult. Right about to finish my uni studies, learned to live on my own and stuff like that.
Still, I feel like I missed on many things both in my teenage years and in my early adulthood. When I was younger it was due to the fact that I was lacking mental care and I couldn't do many things. Now that I'm almost fully recovered thanks to a few years with professional help, I find myself in a healthier mental state, and I truly know how to face situations with a balanced attitude. But the thing is, I feel like healing took a big part of my life away, and now I'm not where I would have thought my promising life would have been.
I started to obsess over the fact that I'm average on many things, while I'm surrounded by some cases who are making exceptional things. I never made a penny while others are having great ideas on business and succeeding in that (recently started to learn some business related skills with 0 results, and I am very discouraged. Without any money I feel like I cannot do many experiences), never gained a circle of friends (During these years I was very focused on my studies and goals, while others seemed to be on a party-mode all the time, so either was difficult to relate or it was difficult for me to find people that were lovely and interesting to be with on a deeper level. Loneliness is another big feeling rn), and overall I experienced a constant sense of trying not to stay behind other folks (and that sucked all my energy) rather than feeling like having a good starting point to learn, grow, and discover things and relationships that will make me happy and richer inside.
I don't know how to overcome this sense of feeling lost and not having done anything special with my life. To me regular stuff is like an usual procedure that needs to be done.
Hopefully I explained myself, since this is not my mother tongue. Willing to listen from your perspective!