I just watched the funky town gore video and everyone else said it was the worst thing they had ever seen and I watched it and it didn't bother me at all the strongest emotion I had was shame for looking at it. I never went out of my way to see this shit but years of message boards have ruined me with endless surprise shock videos I didn't want to see have completely ruined ability to be emotional. How can I go on to try to be romantic with someone after watching somebody's face get ripped off like redskull? I genuinely don't know what I can do its not like drinking or cigarettes where I can just stop doing it and I get better I have seen it and cant unsee it unless brainwashing exists.
