(This is my first ever post)
My gf of 5 years have been partying slot lately, and I’ve just found out that her first X is there when she is partying.
She recently said that the old feelings for him is coming back but that she still loves me, and she don’t know if she wants to be single instead now.
She don’t want him, and he does drugs that she is strictly against.
The only answer I usually get to my questions is ” i don’t know”.
She wants to be with me but she also wants to be alone. (We live togheter)
So there is a chance she will leave me.
And this shit is affecting everything, my work, my social life, everything.
I barley eat anymore and every time she gets a notification my heart jumps, everything she leaves home, don’t matter what she is going to do, I’m dying inside.
I have no-one to talk to, and she doesn’t want me to talk to the friends I or we have in common.
I’m lost, I don’t know what to do.