I feel like I want to cry. I feel the need to cry. However for some reason my mind have kind of blocked me from crying since my childhood I always had this problem. I want to cry but I can't.. I ignored this thinking maybe I cried enough that my tears are no more left. I honestly cried a lot when I was hospitalised for a month when I was 12. But tears don't end so now I know I feel like crying but for some reason I cannot access my emotions to make my body react to it. Crying reduces the stress I am now heavily dependent on substance like weed to cope with my emotions I don't want to do this to me. I genuinely wish to cry. Any suggestions would be helpful.