Man i can’t stand this bulgarian chick anymore.
I knew her from last year but she left the island. Then she wanted to return and did not have a place, I gave her my option for rent and she had her apartment. Then when i started doing some work at her kitchen for mushroom growing she had not left her house in two months (except shopping). She always talked about her childhood and abuse shit and I told her “why are we talking about your childhoodproblems again” and she responded “because i want people to understand me better”. Uaa I told her i wasn’t the right person to talk about this kind of stuff.
Then i showed her places, made her go outside, she picked up on my energy and suddenly became stronger but she also challenged me and played like she’s the stronger one which is bullshit. So this thing went on, she used me at times to tell me therapy stuff. She did not have anybody else so just threw it at me because she could not contain it any longer. I told her that I wasn’t the right person for this. It really stressed me? She told me once that I need to consolidate a therapist, lol.
Then i gave her some employment, she had something to do, made some money, met some people. And she became supercool and strong until to the point where she told me how dead she was inside. I have no capacity for this shit. I also got really sick and im not sure why but partially it was because of her presence, i rented a small office in the back of her place for money and there was a mattress. I bet this chick had something to do with me being totally fucked up man!
Shes leaving the house and the island. I will not help her in the future because it feels like shes using the power against me.
I have to admint, it helped me tremendously to have the chance to rent the small office becauae i could store my stuff there and had a place to lay when i was really sick but all in all I just don’t want to supply her with my energy. The way she texts me smashes my mental health.
You must understand that it is impossible to rent something and im husteling hard and haven’t gotten an apartment for myself.
It feels like she got this twisted perception about things…
I am really happy that she leaves.
rant over