IDK if this is technically mental health but because it's possible coping related I was curious of opinions.
I'm 36.
From 6 months to 19 yrs old I had 35-50 serious surgeries on my skull and face. Pro wrestling was a huge escape for me. Surgeries stopped due to a doctor wanting to get rid of me so he decided to manipulate me and basically traumatized me through unreasonable fear…and that was that.
I'm now 36 and finally after all this time finally got the courage to see doctors about my face again. Almost 20 yrs later l…maybe they can do more.
To go to the same building that I went to all those years ago. It was a lot on me but I did it. To be honest I'm proud of myself for being able to overcome that trauma enough to not just go to the same place but talk to all the new people and tell them what happened so they understood my fears. That was a big step I think for someone who had such trauma.
But that's not the point of this post. I am now scheduled for surgery for the 31st I eat next Friday. I haven't finding myself more and tranced and more giddy over pro wrestling and I haven't years. I'll be honest we are in a special time in pro wrestling it's like a new era So I already had a little more excitement than I've had since I was like 13 over it but this is just next level. I'm finding myself watching it a lot listening to the music and just having a real sentimental experience.
I was just walking on a treadmill listening and I literally almost stopped in my tracks when I realized….
My surgeries are coming up and I'm a little anxious so I'm wondering ifit's basically my brain taking that pro wrestling love and cranking it up to basically shut out the anxiety. Does that sound plausible?
Out of curiousity, why do need so many surgeries for you face?