Lately, ever since my mental health hit Mariana trench, I started fantasising being shown or given affection by people that don’t exist. Fantasies like being hugged and being allowed to cry in their arms. Walking up and having a nice warm breakfast with someone. Hugging them from behind. Tbh now that I think about it, hugging is defo something that I tend to fantasise about a lot.
It’s kind of pathetic… ik… was just wondering if anyone else felt that or did that.
PS. I live in the middle east which has a toxic culture when it comes to physical affection like hugging when it comes to men. And I can’t hug women because of the country’s weird rules either. Not even friends. So often times when I see two women coworkers hug, like my brain kinda lights up or something… its weird. It’s like a small spark. There is a bit of envy involved too because I wish I could do that. But yeahhh positive or healthy physical contact isn’t something I have access to at all thanks to the toxic culture.