I dont want to put my exact age but im under 18 and in high school i dont know if i should post this here but i can delete it if i need to and post somewhere else. I dont know if im addicted but i watch the hub quite a lot, i will go from watching jt every day to not watching it for a month then back to it, but whenever i so i feel this massive guilt. Sometimes ill think of people i know and wonder what they would think about how disgusting i am and such. Last night i went back onto it and i would say i watched kt for a while and did something gross. After it i felt so gross and i started to cry even, and today when i saw my family and then went to school i saw some of my friends all i started to think about was how disappointed and disgusted they would be in me. I felt like of the verge of throwing up and i barley wanted to talk to anyone without feeling sick. Whats worse is i dont want to quit, most days i even wait all day just to go on the hub, im really lonely I’ve never dated anyone and it makes me feel better in a way, but I cant help feeling so guilty and jts making me more depressed then i usually have when it used to make me feel better. Sorry for the long yap session is there anything i can do?
