I just never do anything good enough. I always get caught up in my own flaws no matter how hard I try to improve. When I think I've done a good job, people always make me see only mistakes. I know I've always been a disappointment. I have some talents but they have nothing to do in my daily life. I feel like I'm not a functional, normal human being. That has to be why. I'm fucking weird. I want to please others but I always do something that messes it up and then they hate me. I'm not energetic enough, not smart enough, not independent enough. I hate myself. I wish I was someone else. I always try but it amounts to nothing. Sometimes I wish I could disappear and do everyone else a favor.