My grandmother passed away a few days ago. I have been told I am her mini me personality wise. I used to stay with her every summer for like 2 weeks until my mid-twenties. She was so amazing, strong, resilient, kind, and nurturing. So many stories from her lifetime that are just proof of how amazing she was.
But I have noticed that my OCD, anxiety and depression has started to feel heavier than normal. I expected it to, but it just feels so overwhelming. Along with that my dad (her son) has been really unkind and triggering since we got the news. I have had appointments twice this week with my therapist to discuss the extra OCD, anxiety and depression I have been feeling. I am just so overwhelmed. I have been gentle with myself and doing self-care. But I just feel so incomplete because she was so important to me. Grief is so hard.
Thank you for letting me vent.