Hello, I don't know if this belongs here. But for the past like 4 years, I've been perpetually losing the ability to perceive things as vividly as I once did. I am 23 now, and this started when I was 19. When I was younger, I used to perceive and enjoy things. I was always one of those people who enjoyed the little things and appreciated every moment. I would have a conversation with a friend in a location I deemed cool for some reason, and I would find that so fun I'd daydream about it, even if it is such a small insignificant event. Everything used to elicit some feelings in me, everything was so vivid, so real.
But after I turned 19, every year I am losing this more and more. It's almost as if the world doesn't feel real sometimes. I am trying to fully register and grasp the world, but I just can't. Everything is moving too fast, everything is a blur, and I feel numb. I don't consider myself depressed, I still have fun and I don't get sad too often… I mean I have anxiety, but I had that even back when I perceived the world vividly. When I try looking at the sky, I do enjoy it like I once did… but I don't quite register what I'm experiencing, if that makes sense.
I have considered many possible reasons, I even considered I might need glasses, since my vision has worsened over the years, and maybe the reason I don't experience the world as vividly is because I don't see it as well as I once did. I have considered the possibility that it's just a natural part of getting older, and so many experiences getting old and not having as much of an impact as they once did. Which makes sense, but even when I try new experiences, I am not quite registering them properly.
Is this type of experience widely documented? Does it have a name?