So this is going to be a long story ..
About me and family :
I am an undergraduate student 1 year left for graduation . Education wise i'm good and have been learning many things but if i compare with myself 3 years back , i was completely different and more studious at that time. Family wise , my mother is homemaker but she had faced a lot of trouble from family members. She was not having it and breakdowns easily. My father provides for home but he is cause of a ton of problems which i also faced. My sister was born with disability , which makes her learn slow compared to average human , which my mom faces a lot of trouble with due to her slow learning capability .
In all these issues , i could not get my part. I mean i think what am i doing , because i'm trying to learn much more and more to be able to provide to them and dismiss all the issues. But due to different behaviors in home , (i study at far away place) i lose the motivation zeal to do things. I feel very bad for my sister , she is like a small kid even though she is 5 years younger than me. There are more issues to me in future in marriage , family retirement. I could not able to comprehend what my role is .
I could not care for my sister properly. I cannot tolerate my mother behavior at home due to lot of other issues. I feel she is not doing right things at right time . And behaves aggressively towards everyone in home. She is in a delusion , that makes me kinda hate her in that aspect. My father has changed a bit and not creating mess from past 1.5 year which gives me some hope.
I personally face all this trouble and cannot think of a conclusion.
Please share your wise words.