long post ahead, please help.
hi! i'm 15F from the philippines. recently, i've been really struggling with my mental health. if you look at my posts, it's very evident that i am currently stuck in a constant worry. my anxiousness has become so bad to the point where it my energy is drained. physical symptoms also appear and disappear.
some days are better than others but i really want to be permanently better. it feels like i am obsessing over this certain topic and my day consists of my reassurance seeking. i know the facts and the answers to my questions, and yet i still continue to ask and search for answers.
i recognize that this is really unhealthy. that i may need mental assistance or mental check-up to see if my habits and emotions still fall on the "normal human behavior" bracket. i genuinely feel like i have ocd, i don't want to self-diagnose but i want to get help. it is exhausting to live like this and thinking about living like this for more days tires me.
the problem is, my parents do not believe in mental health. they just tell you to "snap out of it". when it comes to physical health, they are very attentive but mental difficulties are not really their strong suit.
in addition, we are financially struggling. if ever they are able to understand, i don't want to be an added burden to our finances. i may not be able to receive the help i need regularly, or they may be forced to sacrifice their leisure and wants more. i know therapy can be expensive.
any advice?