I have a lot of mental health issues including depression and anxiety and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m a little uncomfortable with taking a medication, but that’s what everyone else thinks I should do. Every time I disagree with anyone, it’s like everybody thinks I’m out to get them and that I’m “combative”, even though I totally disagree. Nothing I do seems right to my family, and I feel like I’m losing them.
Honestly, I know I’ve been rude to them for a while, but it’s because I blame them for all of my mental issues (my blame isn’t totally misplaced, as they have said some crappy things to me). I just feel like I’m constantly being talked down to and nobody seems to care or change. And because I’m so “combative” nobody in my family wants to make an effort or even fight with me. From my perspective, I’m going through what will probably be one of the worst times of my life and I don’t have the support of my family (who have caused some of my issues).
I was put down by other family members at a young age, which I assume is the root cause of all this. I know being rude is…well… rude, but I don’t have another outlet for any of my emotions. There are some things that my family say and do that put me off and fill my head with degrading thoughts, and I don’t know how to stop it.
I’m currently in therapy, which is helping a little, I just know that I’m still struggling and I just don’t know what to do.