Ok so I am going to use this as a way to rant. I am in this friend group of about 8 people and I love about 2 of them like they are family. But the other make me feel like shit I am almost all the time the but of the joke. I am the only white person in the group and half the time they make fun of the way I talk, or look and really anything I do. I feel like I am walking on eggshells half the time but even when I try to mind my business I get yelled or made fun of for my clothing or really anything. What has lead me to really want to level the group is this one BITCH I will call her Regan. She make me feel like shit the most. she talk behind my back, make very rude comments about me, and never want the best for me. Me and this other girl I will call Hound made a bet on this game that whoever get the most will get them this meal from Burgas king. It was fun at first than Regan start to talk me very rudely like for example “why you so upset it not that deep” or “you not even that smart to win” it hurt the hell out of me. I felt like a big idiot and she keep going. Even in one of the class together I heard her talking shit about me. I will be honest it suck’s to lose but I would be ok with that because my friends put in a lot of work and deserve to win. However I hate being called out emotional or being told why are you getting upset it just a game. Like yes of course it is but like why do you have to make me feel like the biggest pice of shit in the world. I am just so done I want to leave. I have to do it because it got to the point where I have through about killing myself due to some of the hateful comments that break me apart. However ever time I try to go I keep coming back I keep telling myself like ooo I will just talk to the 2 friends I love but it always end in the same place. How do I leave this group? Also how do I keep my friendship with the 2 friends?
