I can’t afford a ferapist and I can’t remove the Cause because in order to do that I’d have to stop watching every stremer TV show movie and anime series and stop playing games I’d be removing everything I can do I got no friends and can’t make any because no-one deserves to deal with someone like me I’m aggressive rude arrogant don’t put any effort into anything. I’ve got no life goles. so far it’s just me reminding my self that these people are not real or don’t know I exist and will never know i exist witch makes me just feel bad every time I have to do it. I keep having fantasy’s about what it’s like being friends with them or having conversations with them and always have to remind myself it’ll never happen witch makes me more upset that I’ll likely never have friends because I don’t know how to fix myself.