I always feel lonely and a sense of dread even though I do have friends. I don’t know if I feel my relationships aren’t deep enough, or if it’s because I have some unhealed wounds, but on an almost daily basis I feel a deep sinking feeling in my chest and jelousy when I’m not apart of something or I see others having fun without me. I’ll often have nightmares of friends abandoning me or getting angry at me for being around. I assume this could be because I was bullied as a kid and emotionally abused by a narcissist at home.
I guess I wanna know if anyone else feels this way, and how they deal with it. Any advice or comment is appreciated.