I always enjoyed thinking, but for the past few years, anytime I think, bad memories come up, and I immediately get bad feelings then try to erase the memories, but I end up suppressing a lot than intended. I have a near constant brain fog and it feels like my mind is at war with itself.
I can’t be alone with myself anymore. I used to love being alone with my thoughts, but now, I need constant distractions stop my subconscious from attacking my conscious. I do a lot of maladaptive daydreaming, and I’m often stuck in a daydream for most of the day.