I've been desperate to get help for over a year now, I've done some pretty drastic things to try and gain access. Last year I physically removed 2 of my own fingers in hopes of being kept in hospital to speak with a professional due to a legal obligation of house arrest I was unable to see a face to face psych and online was unstable due to my connection and I spent most sessions pretending I could understand through the broken connection.
When I removed my fingers I explained that I did it to seek urgent help and that it didn't mentally affect me doing something so major so long as I get the help I require (mental health support) and they reattached my fingers (I have no sensation nor movement in them which has made my mental health worse) and sent me home within 36 hours.
I am a known/documented self harmer I have scars head to toe, removed my fingers and have 3 documented attempts on myself.
I've expressed to my gp, hospital and parole officer that I have no desire to keep going and yet I keep getting denied help.
I have a 9 month old son and want to try get better for him above and beyond anything else but the constant being told "you're fine call this number if you aren't" is really taking a toll on me.
No matter how much I call and say I'm not they say I am… How can I get urgent help considering they won't offer it to be if I can self identify that I need it.
I've very concerned about my own health and would like to try and recover for my son.
Based in NSW Australia if anyone can help me to get into mental health treatment… I'm trying to go inpatient for my own safety.