I have trauma from a really bad cannabis induced panic attack. I was doing amazing for 3 years until recently when I had another panic attack (not weed related, I am completely sober from all substances) and it sparked up my traumatic memories. Even though it happened years ago and I almost fully recovered for a period of time I can’t stop thinking that everything that’s happening to me right now is all my fault and I wish my teenaged self never wanted to smoke weed. I feel like I ruined my own life.