Cut contact with family (their choice). I was always the odd one out. Black sheep. My sister and mother lied about me to anyone who would listen. Called me slut, whore, useless, etc. family believes them. My husband is disgusted with me because I am depressed all the time. I am on disability due to depression and anxiety and multiple other things.
I have this repeating dream of just leaving. Getting in my car and driving til I run out of gas. Living in car or under a bridge. Being nothing.
