It’s not intentional, I swear, but maybe because the way I was raised, I find than I’m no good person.
Very bad elements of me are: I’m judgemental, intolerant, I feel like I’m better than other people (when definitely I’m not), I’m egocentric, and what is, in my opinion the worst, is how like to make drama. To clarify, I don’t actually “like” drama, it’s just like something that comes out of me and I’m not able to stop it, every little thing that happens, there I am, being miserable (or pretending to be, which is worst) to get the other person’s pity, it’s like a defense mechanism maybe??? It makes sick, and unable to face my other problems, cause since the minute I feel bad (for something internal, I’m absolutely ok with external issues) about something I go straight to my girlfriend or my mom or my dad and just start crying (I cry a lot).
I feel weak, dirty, lack of masculinity, and worst of all… I don’t know what to do…
