I can barely live in my room

It’s a fine size, the window frames are nice, and that’s pretty much where the good things end for me. I don’t like the patterns of the walls, I hate the color. Same with the floors, they just look gross to me. On one side the walls aren’t even finished, you can see the bricks, cement, the wooden support sticking out etc. We just put a curtain over it to cover it up. I don’t like my furniture, it looks old and it’s not my style at all. The carpet underneath my desk is boring and the texture feels gross. The carpet under my drum kit is just some we used to dust off our shoes, cleaned up and put there. My bed looks fine, but I don’t like the sheets, the texture feels weirdly silky and it makes me uncomfortable. I feel shitty being in this room. And as long the walls don’t get finished, I don’t know if I will. Everything feels gross, I hate touching anything. I just want it to feel clean.

I want to decorate it, I have so many ideas for furniture and fun things I want to hang up on my wall. Or plants I could put on shelves, vinyl records on the walls near my drum kit. But idk this place feels almost unsavable. I wish I could leave and get my own place because this room just makes me feel weird. This whole house does it’s just gross to me and I feel gross living in it

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