It feels like life has been on auto pilot for a few years now. Like there’s no purpose to my life anymore. There hasn’t been any day i had a heartfelt smiled. All my life, I just had to deal with every single thing all by myself. The people I loved, I thought were friends, everyone moved on with their lives. I guess I am the one still thinking of the past days and living in nostalgia. It’s not like i haven’t tried to get out of this loneliness and my depression. No matter how much i try, what i do, it just creeps back into my life. I don’t even talk to anyone these days. I’m just scared to even make new friendships. I’m just scared i am too much for them. I think I finally came to terms with the fact that there isn’t going to be anyone who stays by your side.
The last day of men’s mental health awareness month. To all the men out there, Take care of yourself. I know you wouldn’t let anyone else know what you’re going through. Stay strong.