(I am a teen)
My family is middle class due to my father’s hard work. Me and my siblings had an easier time growing up than he did. My dad tells me because of the opportunities I have that he didn’t I shouldn’t have problems. I’ve been having trouble making friends because of my anxiety and a past incident that happened last year that makes it hard to open up to people. All my dad is saying is that he struggles with that to and this is the best time to make friends but he never gives me actual advice .I’m trying my best to keep my grades up but it’s not good enough for him. I can’t say anything about this because otherwise I’m being disrespectful and ill get punished for it. I can see how I might be unmotivated, but I don’t see how that means disrespectful like he says. And if i gather motivation he assumes there is a secret motive that makes me do it and he pesters me until I don’t feel that motivation anymore. I feel like nothing I do is good enough for him. And I can’t speak up or else I’ll get beat and it sucks. My mom helps sometimes but she is similar in the way that she pesters too much. And they always assume the worst, they never think logically with what could be causing my issues.I can never get a chance to myself to just let my feelings out. And I have no support system. I only have 2 friends and I’ve lost to many friends because of my issues to burden them. I don’t know what to do.
I’m sorry this is a mess