As much as people want to be there for me and care for me, I know I have a lot of pain that I carry with me every day. I deal with a lot of self-hatred, depression, PTSD, anxiety, and a multitude of other things. But regardless of that I've always wanted to help people in any way I can so that they don't have to suffer like I do every day and so that they feel loved and appreciated.
For me to talk about what's bothering me always worries me because I don't want people to have to worry about me and have to waste their energy on me just to make me happy. I just feel so selfish doing that and I just try to keep my issues under wraps so I can help others to feel happy inside. So many of my friends and family want me to be honest with them and talk to them about what's bothering me, but I've always been so hesitatant because I don't want them to be stressed out and unhappy because of me. I can't bear that guilt at all.
I'm sharing this because I just need some guidance on this. I would really appreciate any advice you have to give me. Thanks so much!