i know this isn’t big of a problem but i still wanna vent to someone who isn’t gonna judge me or call me a weakling. Just to somehow make the healing process easier because i feel like isolating myself from the society and just never talk to anyone again
So i’ve had a conflict with my friend who never seemed strong to me and never had a thought of him beating me up or me beating him up because i was just physically stronger than him and everyone thought the same (he was my classmate)
then one day we started arguing i didn’t even think of a fight coming up that day and thought we were chill again, he called me up to the restroom i dont remember the rest, the last thing i remember is him saying something and then he sucker punched me and the lights went out, my other friend was standing by doing nothing but watching, i got hit like 15 times in my face after getting knocked out from the first punch, my friend told me that after the first hit i just put up my guard and didnt even hit him once while getting beat up then my other 2 friends came there and saw the rest when i was just shouting at him for sucker punching etc.. but i dont even remember doing that i was completely unconscious or i just had memory loss. Gladly after the 15 punches the friend who stood by stopped the “fight” i washed my face went outside and only then realized what just happened
i dont know if im over exagerrating and its not a big deal but for the past 3 days i feel humiliated especially because of my friends laughing at me and telling the whole class
also my jaw area is swollen and i bit the inside of my cheeks because i wasnt expecting that at all
but its more mental pain than physical pain
and this is not the first time i engaged in a fight and lost, but for some reason this time i feel like i really lost, not just physically but spiritually too
If there are people here who experienced the same i would love to know how to just forget about this situation and move on in life
and should i visit the doctor because i forgot my phone’s passcode
(M17y.o)
