im 14 years old and most of the time i feel nothing no pain no happinis i cant cry the only emotion i fell is when someone is hurt and i fell joy. when i hear about a murder i think how you would do it and i enjoy it. i rarely sleep and when i do i have dream of me killing or hurting people and im enjoying it. sometimes i need to search what certain emotions even are. and when i dont feel like a monster i feel soulless and like a walking corpse.
