My anxiety has gotten so much worse over the years. Everything scares me. Every time I leave my house, I feel like someone is gonna stalk me or kidnap me. I have very intense intrusive thoughts where I see clear images of scenarios I’m afraid of. I’m terrified of death and anything that’s centered around it. My license test is less than 2 weeks away and I’m terrified of driving alone. Terrified of throwing up, being in a place I can’t escape from. My intrusive thoughts are so intense sometimes that I just stare at the wall with racing thoughts. I’m exhausted. I’m so tired. I can’t have caffeine or I’ll probably have some sort of panic attack. It also just makes me really sick. Panic attacks have been getting more frequent and sometimes unwarranted. I hate this. I want to feel normal again. I don’t know what happened, I wasn’t always like this. I hate being afraid of everything.
