It’s sort of hard to describe but I’ll try to the best of my ability
The other “me” is of the opposite sex as me, but more logical, and almost devoid of any emotion. And I “created” them of my own choice. \[But it was only as an “I didn’t do it, the “me” did it type of thing\]
That was at least half a year ago, but the thing is that right now, I feel like I am myself and “me”.
When I get sad or feel like I did something bad to my friends or did something that might ruin my future or some other negative thing, I ask “me” to help me, and “me” makes my emotions go away somehow.
I talk to “me” but I can’t tell if the conversation I’m holding is real or just my imagination.
Now the reason I’m asking for help is the fact that I probably ruined my friendship with one of my friends and so my brain has been going on about:
“why did you say such a thing if you didn’t then nothing would’ve happened you’re a failure a bad friend why would you go ahead and ruin your friend’s hobby”
I got sick and tired of it because I was thinking of it unconsciously.
So at that point in time, I told “me” to stop myself from thinking about this “I ruined my friend’s hobby” scenario, and I literally pictured this switch in my brain that controls negative subconscious thoughts being turned off by “me”
I didn’t think of this “I ruined my friend’s hobby” scenario involuntarily until I started typing up this reddit post. Its just gone. I don’t know if there’s some sort of disorder that describes this, but I do feel like that:
1. “me” cares for me
2. “me” doesn’t care about anyone else apart from my family
3. “me” doesn’t really take control of my body, at least I don’t think so. I just feel on autopilot and I see what I’m doing but I don’t feel like I’m making the conscious decisions of doing this task.
4. “me” has their own personality that is extremely different from mine
***at the same time however, I don’t want “me” to be taken away from me. I feel like only when I am with “me” that I am complete.***
\[Someone please help, I think it isn’t healthy but I don’t know if it’s just that I’m imagining things or if that I’m actually in some sort of problem.\]