Mentally I feel very strange right now, it's really difficult to describe. I feel so numb and emotionless. I'm not exactly sure what to feel, like I can't pick any words in the English language to describe it. But it's also like I don't want to. I don't want to feel anything? It's also kind of like boredom because I'm not sure what to do right now, but it's not due to a lack of things to do. I'm currently sitting in front of my computer and have the day to waste away; I could play a game, I could continue working on my book or the other project, I could watch YouTube, I could watch Netflix, I could eat something, but I don't want to do anything, and I've never quite felt this way. I don't have the motivation to do anything. I just want to, like, crawl back into bed and sleep and escape from everything. I just graduated high school, and I feel like this is kind of contributing toward this feeling. It's kind of like "what now?" But I also have a plethoric myriad of other shit going on in my life that I'd rather not have going on, and these past few days have been quite eventful and emotionally rollercoasterlike. I guess I just make this post to vent what's on my mind, but I also seek some advice on what I can do about these emotionally numb and dissociative feelings and whether anyone else has been here and can relate.
