I feel ignored, lonely, I want to be left alone and I hate this feeling. I haven’t had friends in a couple of years. At least i had my parents, until like 2 months ago, when they started ignoring me. I have a trip to berlin with my class tomorrow, we are supposed to bring 15 euros to enter a museum, our currency isn’t euros, my parents know and should have exchanged it but ofc they didn’t, the trip is tomorrow and I guess I just stay outside the museum. I have to do my laundry for the trip but I can’t bring myself to do it, I guess I will stay in dirty clothes the wholr trip. I need help. I need help to function. I am autistic, but no one cares. I am overwhelmed.
Now I don’t even talk to anybody. No one.
The girl I used to talk to send me today a picture on instagram with her friends (you know, sending it to everybody to get likes) and I broke down crying seeing someone who has friends.
I feel so down, I don’t know what to do, I feel like there is only one way out. I just don’t care anymore. I am ignored, and lonely. I don’t want to live anymore. The pain is so unbearable. I need help. I need help from someone. But I won’t recive one. I just want to keep losing weight and die. I don’t have anything in my life. I am so lonely. No one will even read this, this just proves the point.
Whats the point. I know I am stupid for wanting to end it. But that thought is so comfortable.
